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Summertime Shivers…

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Summertime is a super time for scaring yourself silly!

Last summer, I talked about my love of scary stories and horror novels, and specifically how I always tend to read them in the summertime.  As I mentioned then, maybe it has something to do with the abundance of sunshine in the summertime, and the stark contrast between the darkness inside the book and the brightness outside.  Maybe because I have the time to really sink into the atmosphere and sensations of a book in the summer, more than I do over the school year.  But, as I continue my summertime horror-binge, I had few more thoughts about The Scary Stuff and (naturally), some recommendations to pass on.

83a5423fd2b06a2bd7146aa59ed8c8adFirst off, horror novels, the really good horror novels that nestle under your skin, that stain your hands, that linger in your dreams, take a heck of a lot of work.  A lot of writers do the gory stuff, and, frankly, I don’t find those things too scary.  Stomach-churning?  Absolutely.  But the kind of horror that floats my boat really aren’t that gory or explicit at all.  My favorite horror novels are the ones that create a fully-immersive world for me to believe in, and characters who are real enough for me to feel for them, and the plight into which they fall.  When my heart and mind are engaged (instead of my stomach), it’s a lot easier to scare me.  This takes a lot of work, and no considerable amount of talent, over and above a knowledge of the human anatomy and how to take it apart.  As a result, some horror novels feature some of the most beautiful, descriptive, and insightful writing I’ve come across, precisely because they need to build that emotional and imaginative bond in order to have the proper effect on the reader.

Secondly, as a reader with anxiety–shocking bookand book anxiety, to boot–scary stories are actually really helpful.  My mind really loves jumping to the worst case scenario, to the ‘what-ifs’, to all the things that could go wrong–and I spend a lot of time and energy trying to ignore those thoughts, or silence those worries, and it’s really tiring.  Horror novels provide a safe space to explore those fears, by not only presenting you with a worst-case scenario (sometimes its realistic, sometimes its supernatural or extraterrestrial), but also by reveling in it.  A lot of these books also leave a lot of room for the reader to insert their own thoughts and fears into the story.  I’m thinking of the scene in ‘Salem’s Lot where the Glick boys are in the woods, and Danny Glick says he sees “it”.  We, as readers, are never really told what it is, or what it looks like…which gives us plenty of room to place our own bogeymen into that space.  Good horror books let us take our fears and worries and concerns out of the shadows and explore them, an act which takes a lot of power away from those fears.

So, if you’re looking to explore the world of scary stuff for the first time, or searching around for a new fix, here are a few of my recent favorite horror selections to give you some summertime shivers…

3622766A Head Full of Ghosts: When Stephen King says a story scared him, we should sit up and pay attention, but I wasn’t sold on it until about the last 50 pages.  But oh, those last fifty pages made this book one of the best I have read in a really, really long time.  Fifteen years ago, the Barrett family (of Beverly, Massachusetts) were the subject of an enormously popular reality show called The Possession, that allegedly documented fourteen-year-old Marjorie’s struggle with demonic possession.  Now, Marjorie’s younger sister, Merry, is telling her side of the story to a journalist who is hoping to get behind the now-famous scenes of the show to what really happened.  This is a heartbreaking, and ultimately horrifying, intoxicating story of familial relations and the fragile ties that bind us, about the desperation and despair of failure, and asks a lot of questions that are impossible to accurately answer.  This is a very tricky book to describe without giving things away, so….just read it.  Then we can talk.

3740626I’m Thinking of Ending Things: This book falls very squarely into the category of cerebral horror, where the reader is given just enough information to follow the plot, but not nearly enough information to feel comfortable.  What we know is that the narrator (who is not named, despite a number of summaries that state the contrary, grr….) is driving with her boyfriend to meet his parents.  But there are so many weird, off-putting, seemingly incongruous events and conversations taking place in the course of this story that it becomes very clear there is far more going on beneath the surface.  Add to this the snippets of conversation we overhear throughout this book, and the stage is set for a book that will play around with your mind for everyone of its 200 pages.  Though the ending of this book was a little too psuedo-deep/intellectual for my tastes, if you like narrative tricks and literary conjuring tricks, along with a thick, increasingly tense and inexplicably hostile atmosphere in your reading, this book is definitely for you.

3726204Security: We recently featured Gina Wohlsdorf’s debut in a recent post, and, since then, and I am here to tell you that All The Reviews are right–this is a remarkably told, viscously creative, and expertly-balanced story that keeps readers on edge by telling them everything….except ‘why’.  Manderley has been billed as the most luxurious, and the most secure hotel in the world.  But, days before its opening, a Killer is stalking the halls and rooms of Manderley, killing off its staff one by one.  The story is narrated by an anonymous member of Manderley’s security staff, who watches all the action from the totally isolated security room on the hotel’s top floor…with less impartiality than one might expect.  There are times when the narrative diverges, sometimes visibly on the page, as we watch characters going up and down the elevators, entering different rooms on different floors, allowing us to keep tabs on them at all times–but never quite sure what is going to happen next.  Though there is a more gruesomeness in this book than most, Wohlsdorf handles it with grown-up discretion, and tempers it by offering insights into her characters and their relationships…and even providing a pitch-perfect love story in the midst of everything that balances this book perfectly and makes it one that is impossible to put down.

There will definitely be more scary stuff to come readers, but for now–enjoy!

 

Book Anxiety Is No Reason To Cry

I’d like to tell you a quick story:

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Once upon a time, a fictional patron came to a fictional circulation desk to pick up a fictional book.  As the fictional circulation assistant was checking this book out, the woman put a hand out to stop her, and asked, “Wait just a moment–have you read this book?”

“I have,” replied the fictional circulation assistant.  “It’s one of my favorites.”

“Good.  Then tell me–is it sad?”

The fictional circulation assistant stopped and looked up.  “Well…yes.”  She said slowly.  “But it’s not a tragedy.”

“Will I cry?”  Asked the fictional patron.  “I really don’t like crying at books.  Just tell me.  Tell me I can read it without worrying…”

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Like so many good stories, this story is inspired by real events.  And I use it as an example of how a brave reader deals with book anxiety.

Book anxiety, as Lady Pole has mentioned, is very real.   It’s a condition that affects me, as well.  As a person who deals very frequently with issues of anxiety, I personally read to escape the world.  To meet and come to understand people in a way I can’t in The Real World, and to get out of my own skin for a little while, and air out my brain and my imagination.  The three of us work much better together afterwards, after the reading break

As a result, I really, really try to avoid books that I know are going to make me sad-cry.  For me, sad-crying at a book is not cathartic.  Struggle with the death of a character I have grown to love is not “cleansing”.  It’s traumatic.  When your escape route, the path down which you run when everything else is just too loud, too much, and too close, is full of tragedy, or loss, or sadness, it ceases to be an escape.  It becomes a trap.  And traps hurt.  The loss of a character with whom I have bonded is like an actual death to me, and, because reading is largely a solitary activity, I have to deal with that loss alone.  And that isn’t fun at all.

I see lists very often online about “53 Books That Will Definitely Make You Cry” or “10 Devastatingly Sad Books“.   Maybe you are one of those people who see those lists and click eagerly, ready with your box of tissues and your library card.  I am not one of those people.  I appreciate knowing that a particular title is sad, but I also appreciate knowing that I don’t have to read it, ever.

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Like the patron in the story above, I very often ask for, or seek out “spoilers” to books; major plot points that give away a significant part of the story.  It’s not “cheating”, because I don’t want to read the book, and it’s not “lazy”, because I don’t want to put the effort into the book.  The truth is, I’m asking because I want to read the book; I just don’t want to come out at the end worse than when I went in.

Incidentally, this is one of the reasons I love romance novels.  I truly appreciate the guarantee implicit in the genre that neither of the protagonists will die, and that the ending will be a happy one for all involved.

cryreadingIn fact, in the story above, I think what the fictional patron did is really quite brave.  Asking ahead about a book shows a good deal of self-awareness and self-care.  If there were certain foods that caused you a problem, you would ask about them in a restaurant, right?  If there was a fabric that irritated your skin, you would check the tag before buying a shirt.  Many people check the website Does the Dog Die?, a site which tells you whether any pets are hurt or die in a film, in order to decide whether it’s something they want to go see, knowing that such a scene would upset them.  Checking out the plot and contents of a book is very much the same for many of us, and there isn’t a comprehensive system in place to let us know.

In the end, the point I am trying to make is that we all read differently, for different reasons, and with the hope of different results.  And that is great–and also why there are so many books on the shelves today.  You have the right to read whichever of those books you want.  And you have the right to ask in advance if the book you have chosen will make you cry.  And you can also know that we will do our best to let you know ahead of time, in whatever level of detail you might like or need.

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